Yes, that's my real name. And this is some poetry I've written. Enjoy it. Or don't.
Oh! And some of it might be NSFW language wise. You've been warned.
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ANYTHING AT ALL
I'm reaching up into the sky
Always searching for a reason why
But never finding what I'm looking for
What I'm living for
What I'm dying for
Take me into the world that I don't believe in
Tell me it's true, tell me until I give in
Give into the lies, the broken words and alibis
Tell me that it's all true, that you never lied
I'm falling down into the ground
Into the dirt where I am bound
And I'm breaking into pieces of everything
Pieces of nothing
Nothing to believe in
Take me into the world that I can never believe in
Fill me with lies, big enough to fit the whole world in
I'll forget about the past, forget these things don't last
And die even more inside as time slips away so fast
I can never believe you
I can never deceive you
I can't even lie to myself
I can't swallow all the lies
Too many to try and fit inside
Why can't I just believe in something...
Anything at all...
Together
Damn you and damn me
Damn it all and you will see
The falling tide, the rising dead
The evil laugh inside your head
Strike it all, so out of place
A rotten soul, full of disgrace
Tap the flood of death and lies
Accept their words and then decide
Stay or run, stand or fall
Believe the lie inside it all
Take your time, forget your past
And live a life that will never last
Blood in me, no blood in you
A tale so old, A tale so true
The voice it speaks, it calls inside
To live my life, alone in my mind
So darken your hue and take your place
A body gone cold, A stare on your face
I laugh and I cry, A pill and I lie
A night and a sigh so together we die
Burn It Down
No matter how I try
I just can't deny
How broken up inside
Buried by these lies
I'm still just looking for
A world just outside my door
A place I knew before
A life with something more
But I stop and look around
At this sick, unholy ground
My cage in which I'm bound
I just want to burn it down
Looking back on the price I've paid
On the mistakes and bad decisions I have made
I threw away the one thing I should have saved
Slipped right through my hands when I looked away
A long time gone, remembering what I had
All the joy and happiness until it all went bad
I curse myself for what I've done
The hurt and all the pain I gave to everyone
I look at this place around me
And all that I can see
Is the cage in which I'm bound
And I just want to burn it down
Would It Matter
Would it matter if I told you I'm empty inside
Like a piece of my heart has just up and died
Would it matter to you if I gave you my love
Even if it could never be enough
To make it all up to you
After all the s**t that I put you through
Can we turn back the hands of time
And make it last, your hand in mine
Would it matter if I gave you everything
A wedding dress and a diamond ring
Would it matter if I never said goodbye
Took back those words that made you cry
And try to make it all up to you
After all the s**t that I put you through
Can we take it back, back to the start
Before it went so wrong and fell apart
Would you ever let me say to you
How my love will always be true
Or would you scream at me that I should go
I wouldn't blame you, but you should know
I want to make it all up to you
After all the s**t that I put you through
Can we take back the words that made us cry
And just love one another until the day we die
Would it matter now if I should say
To give us a chance, just one more day
Could we hold one another just like in the past
And make every kiss feel like it might be our last
I just want to make it all up to you
After all the s**t that I put you through
I know you may not be ready, and I'm prepared to wait
But let's make it last forever before it's too late
Because I love you
Always and forever
Angel Wings
Angel wings beat to the rhythm of my heart
A beat that takes me back to the start
Back in time to the way it was before
Back in the arms of the one I adore
Angel wings spread, filling up the sky
Bringing truth to the world, filled up with lies
Tearing down walls, removing all the masks
The soul that lies within, revealed to all at last
Angel wings close, protection from the storm
Like arms around my love, kept safe from the harm
Letting only good in, keeping evil at bay
Enveloped in love, forever this way
Angel wings praise a love I thought lost
A love to be regained, no matter what the cost
My angel has returned, a dream has come true
And I'll never let her go, no matter what I do
The Storm
My heart it beats like thunder
And there is lightning in my veins
The storm is growing stronger
While my tears fall down like rain
The air is static charged
My muscles scream and shake
My mind is crying out
Within a dream I can't awake
A nightmare of my own making
My own little slice of hell
The beast is pressed upon me
Within this mindscape jail
The beast attempts to take me
I fight to get away
But the body still betrays me
And forces me to stay
The storm is darkly raging
And it's power will set me free
From this prison I will rise
And return then to the sea
Break
They say breaking a mirror is bad luck
And it's the only luck I've ever known
Give me one, a hundred, a million
And I'll break every f***ing one
Break them down in shards so small
No one will be able to find them all
Blood and glass, a portrait of hate
With violence and dreams I perpetuate
Knock them down, one by one
Turn the world into the abyss
If I can never ever touch you
If I can never feel your kiss
Break down the mirror inside this shell
Send me back to my own private hell
Forever denied, forever damned
An empty shell is all that I am
So f**k you if your life is great
With me all you do is agitate
I wonder if anyone will miss
When I can't stand another day of this
The Devil You Know
The devil you know and the devil you see
Are nothing compared to that which we seek
For the man that is waking, for the child left alone
For the woman in rags for whose sins we atone
We worship the mighty, we pity the weak
We hold in our hands the future we seek
Dollars and coins, diamonds and pearls
More important than life as the future unfurls
Life is a daydream that's sold on the street
Where we all bow our heads, held down in defeat
Our war not yet fought, yet already lost
But who are we to notice who's paying the cost
The wretched, the lost, the downtrodden masses
Are stones to be stepped on by the wealthier classes
Who seek out new brands, a new popular fad
While our children come home in a black plastic bag
We sell off ourselves, our bodies and minds
To anyone willing to spare us the time
We ingest poisons made to bury our pain
We constantly change, but we all stay the same
The devil you know and the devil you see
Now lost in the madness of that which will be
Our shadow, our shade, we create what we need
Our devil we made with our lust and our greed
Words on a Page
Worthless words on a worthless page
To spill out upon you my pitiful rage
To whimper and whine, to weep and to cry
To long for the times that always pass by
I spite you with marks, with hateful intent
With lyrical sewage of my own discontent
I strike you with pain, with sorrow and lies
I hate these few moments that always fly by
I cut, I bleed, I bellow for more
Nothing but a wasted, bothersome whore
Of a wordsmith atoning for words long forgotten
Spilled from a heart left festering and rotten
In the end I am left with all I have given
More pain and more death that has been deriven
From the blood of the damned I soaked up with laughter
All the while driving my demons on faster
The souls of the weak, the flesh of the strong
Culled from the notes of Heaven's sweet song
Remind me that I am barred, abandoned by love
Never to soar with the spirits above
So I bleed out my venom on this pitiful page
The fuel for the fires that constantly rage
Destroying my mind, corrupting my self
Until the only thing that I will have left
Is my empty sorrow, my hate, my rage
Worthless words on a worthless page
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